Now don’t i sound like The Ring now. haha. today has been pretty easy. it’s just boring as fuck. tomorrow should be fun. i’m going to go out with my sister to watch her shop lol. eh i might stay home but i’m not sure. i should probably get out and do something other than using the computer. i can’t wait for him to come home already. totally over being alone and sleeping alone. it’s not very sad anymore it’s just…lame. i’m very excited for the dallas remake to come out as well as part 1 of breaking dawn. so fun. i ran out of dog food today. monster got as much as he needs for the day but tomorrow i’m going to have to give him treats or something=/ sister might buy food though. hopefully she does because i won’t be able to get any for 7 more days. i’m already tired and i woke up at 3pm! it hasn’t been a full five hours yet wtf. maybe i should make myself go to bed at a normal time today…especially if i go shopping with her tomorrow because she wants to get up really early. i just realized i really don’t have anything to wear tomorrow so maybe i won’t go. ugh. idk. he took all our clothes to his dads house to do laundry. there are washers and dryers hear but we don’t like to use them. it’s kind of gross if you think about it. atleast wednesday will be pretty fun. like….i’ll br really excited and get to say “tomorrow” instead of some amount of days. and i’ll be cleaning my room and stuff. i think this weekend will be hard. well..friday and saturday. he doesn’t work on friday or saturday and ill be missing him and he will be doing nothing=/ oh well. the faster the weekend comes, the faster he comes. lol and literally=)

Only 8 more days of loneliness!!!! woot! it’s kind of a long time…anyway last night started to get hard when he texted me and said he was going to work..i miss him! argh. it was pretty bad. but then he texted me on his way home and then when he arrived home we smoke together on the phone;) it was fun. it made me feel better. going to sleep was a little hard. he just left for work right now i guess. i’ll be up for a while. today was way easier than i thought. i’m not so sad anymore. i realized i need to grow a pair. for sure. omg i was outside smoking and the maintainmence man came up to me and talked forrrrrrrrrrrever asking me where i live and kind of creepy shit..he’s like really nice but he must be really horny. and i have to be nice because he knows that we have dogs and we didnt make a payment for them. so pretty much i’m feeling fine…tired…but fine.

Yeah…so i’m at a count down LOL. No one reads this anyway..and THANK GOD. I would seem like a crazy person. I just like to use it for my personal diary kind of. Ehh I don’t give a fuck. Last night ended up being great! I felt fine and not even sad. I was surprised. I think my fiance had a harder time then I did. My sister and I made yummy food and watched Superbad. Which by the way, is a great movie! I talked to him on the phone while I smoked. It ended my night perfectly. Sleeping without someone is hard. I only slept like 4 hours. Today I woke up in a great mood! Surprising again..it’s been about 3 hours since i’ve woken up and I have anxiety…I miss him right now. A lot. I’ve been texting him but still…=/ Not the greatest feeling. I got rosetta stone for the language Manderin. We both are moving to China for a year in a couple months. I’m excited buuuuut I can’t use facebook when i’m there. lame. They banned it I guess. I’ll have more China details later. I’m so fucking bored…the only thing to do is look at my dog. UGH. Eww he’s totally licking his weiner right now. LOL. ugh i’m fuckin sad. Maybe i’ll apply to jobs…play sims….eat food…smoke…learn manderin….shoot myself. LOL.

Lame Ass Shit.

This seems utterly silly. Entirely silly. My fiance isn’t coming home for 10 days and i’m pretty upset. I just miss him. Ew I hate being that girl…10 days really isn’t that long but we haven’t been apart that long sice we’ve been together…ever. And we’ve been together for over 3 years. It’s hard. I think the longest we were apart was…3 or 4 days? Not sure. But surely not 10. We live in Sacramento now and it’s very lonely when he’s gone. He went to Modesto to work for a little so we can make it here until I find a job. Which…is sooooooooooo fucking annoying. Rejection after rejection hurts. I try so hard..i’m applying constantly and I don’t even get a call back. It’s bullshit. My fiance has a friend that gives him work when he needs it so that’s nice. BUT my fiance’s father thinks that I am using him and being “lazy”. He thinks i’m not trying hard enough to find a job. OMG…really? FUCK YOU then! He told my fiance that he doesn’t want me at his house until I find a job. So I can’t go to Modesto and stay there for 10 days because…that would be the only place to stay…his dads house. RUDE! It really hurts. His dad acts like i’m some whore on the side. We have been together for over 3 years…I love his son..with all my heart. I would never do anything like that. And I do try to get a job..he thinks it’s like how it was when he was young..just walk in somewhere and ask for a job. Most people would be like “don’t dwell on it..he’s a dick..who cares what he thinks”. But I really do care what he thinks. I want him to be my father-in-law one day. I want him to respect me. I want to have a good relationship with him. Sometimes I think he just doesn’t like women because of his experiences. He has two ex wives and they both left him…broke his heart. He’s still inlove with his last ex (fiance’s mother). I think he hates women or something. I’ve always been polite and respectful towards him. I wish he would just understand..

Either I need a cigarette or i’m so sick of people posting BULLshit all the time. OOhhh here’s a picture of the mountains and this and that-i’m so artistic. GET over yourself. Bitch the mountains were there before you…you just took a picture and changed the lighting on photoshop. wow. so magical on your $10,000 camera.

If it was sooooooooooooooooooooooo god damn special then why the #FUCK is it on tumblr? and not in a magazine.

They must not want your bullshit either.

Um okay…i’m going to smoke now.

sorry folks.

but not really.

peace«

 Like really……..I live by peace. That does not mean that I won’t do anything if you’re a whorebitchslut to me. Gotta check yourself before you wreck yourself.

#<word>#

Fucking#BOING#?;^&

Had the most wonderful weekend. My 21st started out with drinks at lunch…drinks at home…and then drinks at the bar=) i loved it. My love’s birthday was the next day and we went to the fair! Unfortunately I ran into this girl I used to work with. She talked for 500 years. After she was finished talking they closed the bar at the fair. Thanks. So we bought beer and drank at home. We had so much fun. This weekend it’s on. I’m going to get a new outfit, dye my hair and party at Chuckchansi. Yay. Can’t fucking wait. It’s about to go down. Hoorah. Right now i’m just so effing tired from all this stuff going on. We move to Sacramento in 2 weeks. I should enjoy this “vacation” from not working. It’s going to suck soon. hahaha. Thank god for birthday money…that’s what kept us alive.

With love,

Heresy Gypsy

I feel so suffocated in this house with these idiots. I’m over it! I can’t wait to move. My Love’s dad’s room mates are just sooo annoying. I’m constantly around boys so it makes me depressed. I love being around my Love however. It’s just he is always with these room mates and it’s so annoying. I don’t blame him at all. It’s the room mates that I hate! If they weren’t such whiny bitches who told the same old stories over and over it would be perfectly fine. The answer is to go out and be with my friends. Well, ever since I moved my “friends” have ditched and replaced me. It’s bullshit. I doubt they will even see me tomorrow (21). Whatever. Over it. Ugh. Being the only girl in a house with 4 men is really stressful. It’s like it’s fucking boys night out every fucking night…except…inside the house. I might enjoy it better if they left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was supposed to see my sister today and that was going to cure everything for me. But…her son got the flu of course and I can’t go over now. That’s probably what started it all. I’m not trying to be like “poor me” “feel sorry for me”…I’m just expressing how I honestly feel right now. Hopefully my birthday is filled with joy.  Ehh who the fuck cares…i’ll be drunk.

With love,

Heresy Gypsy

So My Love and I decided we are going to move to Sacramento. Final decision. I decided I want my degree before I move to San Francisco. I feel like i’ll be stuck in a retail position forever if I move there without a degree. I’d have to work constantly just to keep our studio. Fuck that. I’m pretty excited. My sister lives there and we are going to take a room at her place, work for a month, and then move out. Sounds like a plan to me!

Turning 21 in 2 days. I can’t wait. I don’t even really know what i’m doing. My Love turns 21 the day after me=) how cool is that? We will be going to my parents house on saturday to have drinks and lunch. It seems silly but I can’t wait to order a drink. If they don’t ask for my I.D i’m going to be pissed! After that we are headed back to My Love’s parents house. I might go out with the Friend I mentioned before. Yeah..the one who isn’t that good of a friend…he’s my Love’s cousin so…what do ya do? Then the next morning is My Love’s bday. Should be pretty fun. Not sure what we are doing. All we know is that next weekend is really the birthday celebration. We are getting out of town, going to clubs, and gambling. Yay. We are going to stay the night too. That’s why i’m not too concerned if we don’t do much on our actual birthday.

I’m starrrrrrving and My Love is still asleep! He worked all night long. He needs to wake up now!!!!!!! argh.

By the way…this is the newest Ugliest Dog in the World.

LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!

with love,

Heresy Gypsy